It felt like a shift in perspective, a letting go of the past, a moving forward, creating a space for new opportunities.
It was a sudden death. All of a sudden a tree that had stood proudly in our front yard was dead. Dead how… dead why..? So sudden.
Had it been poisoned? Possibly? No.
The arborists who came to quote called it ‘dieback’, a common thing apparently for the Liquidambar. It could have been a slow process over ten years or more. We were just not aware it was happening.
Anyhow, we accepted the fact she was dead. We started getting quotes and came to terms with the cost involved to remove her from our life.
And now she's gone and the wow factor of letting her go and the amazing space we have created in our life has been replaced with a sadness… well, some sadness as I recognise and remember what she has contributed to our lives.
This tree has been a pivotal part of our family; keeping us cool on hot summers days, providing shade from the summer sunshine and strong branches for our hammocks and my beautiful swing.
Memories of hide and seek come to mind, a great backdrop for cubby houses created from old sheets and the Easter Bunnies favourite spot to hide treats for the annual Easter hunt.
I reflect on the fact my Mum’s death was sudden too. Dancing with me one moment then a massive stroke. Two weeks of assessing and recognising and accepting the realities before we let her go.
I'm feeling teary as I write because I know, while both spiritually and energetically there are times we need to let go, I also know the pain of loss is something we have to experience as human beings.
It's the way it is… emotions in motion, feelings come and go… some I like and some I don't. They are all part of me and all as important as each other.
So I acknowledge I have been given another gift to embrace, and I need to practice living in the moment every day knowing that whatever happens I will be okay.
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