Today I had a project I was working on which took me outside my comfort zone and I so wanted someone else to fix it for me. John refused to rescue me. I was not happy. I was stuck and reaching outside of me for the solution ... and then 'I got it'. My intuition reminded me to do what I do best in these situations: "write it out". So I did ... It started with acknowledging "I'm stuck" and the words flowed from there. In a short period of time my overview was complete and I was no longer 'stuck', Reminder to me ... recognise and acknowledge my fears and listen to my intuition. I now appreciate John's resistance to rescue me. It worked. |
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Two and a half weeks ago I was living my mission one step at a time. The essence of me was shining brightly. I felt good. I felt challenged. I felt willing to continue on my pathway guided by my intuition.
And then ... for the last two weeks I've been stuck in my childhood perceptions of 'who I am' completely depleted of the 'inner knowing of the love that I am'. I was triggered by a comment made by another person in my birth family about me. This trigger was so, so deep it penetrated way beyond the surface of the ‘me’ that loves and accepts me as I am and delved into the deep dark corners of blame, fault, fear and more. My sense of self, my sense of knowing, my sense of ‘me’ fell apart as I allowed this dark vision of myself to present as I desperately attempted to push it away. It was devastating. I was devastated and I felt the deep, deep helplessness of 'there is no way out' … 'there is no resolution' … 'there is just pain and suffering' … I so, so wanted to fix this, just as I have wanted to fix this since I was a young child. So, during this time I have been overwhelmed with emotions. I have sobbed my heart out. My solar plexus which is the energy centre for self love and self nurturing felt like it had completely collapsed and I felt like I didn't even want to get out of bed. I even felt like I just wanted to run away from it all. In this time I have also taken steps each day to nurture myself even when I didn't feel like it. I got out of bed, I went for a walk, I went to the gym, I meditated. I wrote through the pain. I kept going gently one step at a time even when I didn't feel like it. Then, this morning I turned the corner and came home to my heart. The most powerful thing I did was I cared for ‘me’ throughout this time. I cared for and loved the 'inner child’ who was sobbing for her life … the little girl who was lost and alone and felt like no one understood her … the little girl who ‘didn't fit in' … the little girl ‘who just knew' … and through it all I found my little girl has grown into a radiant compassionate loving woman who knows how to find her way home to the love in her heart, and then share her wisdom and experience to help others. When I look back I see I have spent a lifetime learning, making great choices, making mistakes, falling apart, healing myself and healing others. I am a sensitive intuitive just born to be ‘me’. I've been sharing my story on Facebook now for nearly two years to help others who are grieving for the loss of a loved one. My page has now passed 8,000 likes and that makes it worth getting up every single day. Why you say? It’s about the people behind the likes and how my page helps them. It all began with my first book: ‘MUM MOMENTS – Journey Through Grief’. On my Facebook page I shared excerpts from my grief journals and invited others to share their thoughts and feelings. Those who read my words said “I gave them permission to feel” and helped them realise they were not alone. Knowing my words supported others in their grieving process is heart warming. Now, with the launch of my second book, ‘HEARTSPACE – Letters To My Mother’ the journey continues. Through writing I express and share my feelings with my mother just as I did in our conversations when she was alive. This has allowed our relationship to grow and unfold in ways I could never have imagined. My readers discover that ‘Love Transcends Death’ and there are many ways to stay connected with our loved ones. They are given the opportunity to explore how they can stay connected too
“… Judy lives the reality that death is not the end, that love and a relationship are much stronger than death. Her heartfelt letters to her mother offer a clear insight into the power of this Love. By sharing this journey others will gain strength and confidence to grow their relationship with their loved ones.” Glen Lord, President - The Grief Toolbox, President - Compassionate Friends USA “Judy Taylor is a beautiful example of living from the heart, not the head. Her messages spread light around the world. What a true blessing … I love it! Very raw and honest. Very, very powerful. I think that is what the world needs....authenticity.” Lynda Cheldelin Fell, President - National Grief & Hope Coalition, Creator – Grief Diaries “… The focus is less on dwelling on loss and more on living a full and meaningful life. Lessons we learn from our deceased loved ones are priceless in showing us how to live in the moment and be truly present. It's to Judy's credit that she opens her heart so that we can heal ours.” Rose Inserra, Best Selling author - ‘Dictionary of Dreams’ “’HEARTSPACE – Letters To My Mother’ reveals that, through letter-writing to a loved one our heartfelt emotions can be expressed in a healthy and healing way. It beautifully shows that our connections never have to end and our relationships can become eve closer.” Christine Duminiak, Certified Grief Recovery Specialist & Author – ‘Grammy Visits From Heaven’ What readers say about ‘MUM MOMENTS - Journey Through Grief” (2014) “I highly recommend it!! Just finished it last night! Amazing and touching!” Robin Winsor “I love your story and your true honesty and rawness. It speaks deep within from your soul.” Angela Cartwright (President National Grief Awareness) “… I bought this book on Amazon and loved it so much that I bought the hard copy too - it really helped me after losing my dad and I passed it onto my mum who has said it has greatly helped her too. I can't recommend this book highly enough for anyone who has lost a loved one.” Trudy Brookes - Rainbow Rays Reiki “I LOVE this book it has helped me tremendously and continues to help me. For anyone going through grief I would highly recommend it… It's a long road, and I miss (my parents) so much. Sometimes there are just no words” Doris Pelletier Jarvis “I have just been reading your book and so many things you write hit home. I lost my mum suddenly last year (she was 62) she died unexpectedly … I never got to say goodbye to her… Thank you for your journey and sharing it with others, Judy” Sara Amos “I was at Judy Taylor's Mum Moments book launch last year… I lost my mum just on 12 months ago. I only just recently picked up Jude's book to read. I laughed, cried and could relate to her story in so many ways… I am blessed to have met you and share your journey. You are an inspiration…” Annalisa Seville “Thank you the tears I have being trying to hide are flowing freely after reading nearly half of your beautiful book I look forward to finding peace in writing to my mum thanks it is a big help xx” Hayley Comley “Jude, while reading your book I feel so connected with my Mom. Spirituality lifted… Truly Amazing! Thank you for sharing your Journey!.. Just what I need! God Bless XO” Erin Piotroski-Olshefski “I thoroughly enjoyed reading Mum Moments. Having lost my mom unexpectedly last November, so much of what Judy wrote really hit home. I know that I will read it multiple times as I continue on my own journey through the unspeakable grief that comes from suddenly losing my mom and best friend.” Denise Fleming (Kindle edition)
Judy was tested when her mother died suddenly in February 2011. To deal with her grief she began writing her thoughts and feelings down which provided her with personal comfort and support. She soon found friends and colleagues were touched by her words and was encouraged to share her writings to help others. This led to the self-publication of both her books. Now, as a successful author, social media facilitator and speaker, Judy has found her niche helping others deal with their own grief and grieving processes. Links: www.positivesigns.com.au http://www.positivesigns.com.au/books.html https://www.facebook.com/Judy-Taylor-Grief-Healing-Love-Inspiration-Hope-724885690872207/ https://youtu.be/7jQFokkzGLE https://www.youtube.com/user/TheZergo123 https://www.amazon.com/author/judytaylor ‘HEARTSPACE – Letters To My Mother’
ISBN - Paperback: 978-0-9924900-4-1 ISBN – Ebook: 978-0-9924900-3-4 A whirlwind of emotions and feelings are presenting as my 60th birthday draws close. Last Thursday I received a phone call to say my Dad's heart condition has deteriorated and the earliest they could operate is this Friday which is my birthday. My sister in law died on Saturday night 4 weeks after being diagnosed with incurable cancer. My 'Living in the Moment' way of life is challenging me to embrace it all. In the early hours of this morning I had a dream where I was sitting in a cafe and my mum walked past. I called her in, we had a huge, beautiful hug and she let me know she is always with me… and then I woke up. I attempted to go back into a dream state to see her again however she let me know that that was enough and that she is always with me. Since she died 4½ years ago I so wanted her to present in physical form like this, just like the stories of contacts others had shared with me. I came to an acceptance this was not the way my mum and I were going to connect. My writing became my most powerful way to connect with her and talking to her just as we had in life became a natural part of our connection. This has sustained me and continues to be a wonderful way to continue our relationship. In the past week I have not been connecting with her as I have been overwhelmed with all that is happening here in our lives. So this morning she has opened me to a new connection through dreams. I have sobbed tears of joy today for seeing her, hugging her and talking to her in my dream. It was so powerful. More importantly, I have sobbed tears of joy and sadness as I recognise if this had happened in the early days I may never have written my journal, never have developed a way to communicate with her through my writing and talking to her which has opened me up to the power of love and the magnificence of life beyond death. Sharing my story through publishing my journal ‘Mum Moments- Journey Through Grief’ as a book in 2014 has now helped and supported people worldwide. I get so many messages of thanks it makes it all worthwhile. My Facebook page ‘Mum Moments- Journey Through Grief’offers love comfort and support daily around the world and helps people realise they are not alone. It feels so good to be helping in this way. I have just completed editing my 2nd book with a working title 'Heartspace - Letters to my Mother’. I ran a workshop last week and plan to run more titled 'Love Transcends Death - Staying Connected' because I know in my heart when we set the intention our loved ones present in a way we can receive them. All this may not have happened if my mum had presented in my dreams in those early days, or through the weeks, months and years after she died. Oh my God Mum, you truly have been with me every step of the way. You have never left my side. I love you so much and I hear you say "I love you too, Jude". You are the only one who says it that way. Love radiates everywhere. Jude xoxoxo Judy Taylor
Author of ‘Mum Moments - Journey Through Grief’ If you would like support on your journey please explore our website. You can join our mailing list to keep in touch with future workshops and events. My books, ‘MUM MOMENTS – Journey Through Grief’ and 'HEARTSPACE - Letters To My Mother' are available for purchase worldwide from our website: www.positivesigns.com.au and most major online retailers. You can also ask your bookstore to order it in if it’s not on the shelf. It's a warm sunny afternoon and I am reflecting on a workshop I facilitated this morning at Simply Natural Therapies: 'Love Transcends Death - Staying Connected.' Once the introductions were completed the session evolved into a heartfelt communication where all participants shared their personal stories. I began with my journey through grief following my mum's sudden death in 2011 and how writing became one of my most powerful healing tools as I embraced every single emotion and feeling that presented. Through my writing I discovered a connection with my mum that truly transcends life on earth and found many other ways to keep our connection alive. The more I wrote the stronger the connection. I now write to her and chat to her in everyday life. It is a beautiful and uplifting relationship that sustains me. As a group we explored ways to acknowledge our grief as individuals and ways to stay connected with our loved ones. Personal experiences were shared which helped us all realise we are not alone and our feelings are okay. Many were in the early stages of grief having lost loved ones in recent months or less than a year while others had lost loved ones several years ago. Each one knew the raw emotion of loss and the walls they created in their lives to resist the pain. Some acknowledged they were not yet ready to embrace that pain. It was a humbling experience to sit with and acknowledge people who were willing to share their grief. Others were more comfortable sitting and observing the processes being shared and soon realised this was a safe, healing space. As the session evolved each and every one opened their hearts to whatever healing processes resonated for them. By the end of the session everyone recognised they now had a fresh approach to help them on their journey. Feedback: Comments included ‘comforting, understanding, supportive, thank you so much, extremely informative, excellent’. Jude xoxoxo Judy Taylor Author of ‘Mum Moments - Journey Through Grief’ If you would like support on your journey please explore our website.
You can join our mailing list to keep in touch with future workshops and events. My first book ‘MUM MOMENTS – Journey Through Grief’ is available for purchase worldwide from these websites: www.positivesigns.com.au , www.amazon.com , www.barnesandnoble.com , www.thegrieftoolbox.com , www.bookstore.co.uk TYPE “Mum Moments” in the search box. You can also ask your bookstore to order it in if it’s not on the shelf. You are in my thoughts daily and I love it. Often I need to write it, sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t. If it’s meant to be I’ll write it and if it’s meant for me I’ll keep it within me, share it when it’s right and keep it tight when it’s not. The wonder of writing is the fact that I can when the urge presents. So often in life things come to me and I can see the benefit in sharing these thoughts and I understand the meaning, the truths that unfold in the moment. I’m realising in the moment that sometimes the message is for me and sometimes the message is for sharing. Intuitively I always know, intuitively I sense that knowing. I know it’s time to listen more to me and allow my higher purpose on earth to be fulfilled. Thank you for being my Mum. Jude Sunday 29th April, 2012 Excerpt from Mum Moments - Journey Through Grief LINKS Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/Judy-Taylor-Grief-Healing-Love-Inspiration-Hope-724885690872207/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/JudyTaylor2014 Amazon Author’s page: http://www.amazon.com/-/e/B018LQJ5SC Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCPGoVDdQ3PG1YLJs4fA3QgA Join Our Mailing List: http://www.positivesigns.com.au/join-mailing-list.html Audio Visualisations: http://www.cdbaby.com/Artist/PositiveSigns |
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